Have you been

to my door
have you seen me
collapsed
on the floor

somethings worth 
living 
for

have you been cursed and blessed
angry and tepid
mad and serene and crazy and obscene
and wild with lust and rage and obsession

have you felt possession?

some things 
worth living for

Have you been
drunken wasted all night long
nothing there left to think about
An old man who has fought his own wars
begging a young thing to drink and then
make him feel just one more time alive

Some things worth
living for again

Have you been the monk, on a hilltop looking out
wondering and then still
nothing to live for, serenity

Have you been lost and found 
have you been true and secretive
have you really lived?

Have you died?

each night worse and worse
with time's twilight
yet shining on the horizon
for each of us
as we age not so graceful as we thought

have you thought
have you begun to think about your own death
i have not

but I have lived
and will never forget that
i may die at any time without regret